I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
let it takes me where it wants to go
'till you open the door there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
but I couldn't find wings
but you came along and changed everything

you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like i'm falling
and i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier

you showed me something that i couldn't see
you opened my eyes and you made me believe
Baby you showed me what living is for
i don't want to hide anymore


till next time>>

little sunshine (:

my LONG awaited payroll is here! Sis got the treat since she was the only one to share my joy that day (:

Had Aston and we were planning to go for some nice dessert at Ministry of Food but i got really attracted to the playground outside Aston. The playground is FUN! There was this eggy thing that spins on it's own due to the grvitational force. Amanda spin so fast that she couldn't stop and started shouting for help. There are some water guns with quite a pathetic amount of water splashing out and the highlight is that super short see-saw. Damn fun la. We violently kicked to make each other fly up and hit the seat when we land with this adrenaline rush. HA!

OH! i forgot to mention about the dessert after that. Amanda spin in that eggy thing till she was super giddy so we gave the dessert a miss. oh well, next pay (;

Who needs a boyfriend when she has a sister?
hahahah.

long weekend ahead!

team outing tmr!

Sunday is Pepper day!

I LOVE PEPPER (:

updates!

Very overdue but still must say.. HAPPY 21st Birthday to DAVE HAN XIANG YUAN!

It was a nice meet up to keep ourselves updated about our attachments and playing a fool after not meeting for so long.

ginger & wasabi sabotages for Dave.

Best entertainment after a whole week of work (:

There are just simply too much to describe how wonderful it was to anticipate for a gathering and just enjoying ourselves after work (:

Looking throught the photos and i really found that phelan is the ultimate.

nothing to say sia!

more like PHUA NO MORE :D

GAY.

marina barrage is nice! i want to go play water again !!!

till next time>>

fickle mind

i was broading over it when i was showering, on my way to work, during my break and when i was going home.
and i realise that it came so hard on me because i treasured you as a very dear friend.
i want to take back what i've said.
i admit i was very hot-headed at that point of time.
but i just don't want this to affect the rest of the days that are coming.
why am i always like that?
come on. just slap me.

and

i know i'm mad for thinking like that.
i know that he'll hate me for thinking like that.
cos i'll be unreasonable for thinking like that when i know in the first place that there is nothing.
okay.. i really dono what's up with me these few days.
i'm getting serious depression soon.
come on. slap me again.

girls,
i think i'm deprived of happiness.
hurry bring me out to play.

see, tell me i'm mad.
cos i was damn depressed ytd, got happy again and i'm like that again today.
then cry and cry and cry.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
are these the symptoms of depression?

till next time>>

one blow after another

I lost again.
You all must be surprise that i'm still living and typing in my rotting blog.
since the last time i said if i don't win this race, i really dono what am i doing in life.

but

I'm so touched by all the encouragements from my teammates.
They knew that i was really down and didn't want to say much or explain further.
All they had to say to me was that I still have more to come and a pat on my back/ a great warm hug.
It's all enough and i'm really very thankful for them.


BEST of all, i had all the attention in the world from PEPPER!
He was damn attentive in what i had to say and he knew exactly what to do to cheer me up.
Actually all he did was to tell me that i am great, give me a hug and say that he love me.
hahahahah...
cheesy stuff!


cliche but real.
it doesn't matter if i fell, most importantly is how i pick myself back up again.


it's all over now but it was indeed a good experience rowing at marina barrage.

• The sun was damn scorching
• The starter's honk went "lao honk" and he had to shout "GO" instead to replace the honk immediately. damn hilarious
• The water was choppy yet very stable to row in
  
• I HAD A TRY ON THE NEW ELIO BOAT!
• There is this random man-made boat race which is damn funny

I'm kind of seeing light in my life again.
do i call this mood swing?
okay.. i better do my elog now.
I LOVE PEPPER MANY MANY MANY MANYYYYYYY!

CONGRATS to your collection of K4 Gold, silver and bronze medals in NCC!

till next time>>

all i can think of is cry

I feel so out of this world.
yes, i feel like an alien.
I'm so lost in everything.
All I remember everyday is that i have work the next day.
I look forward to meeting somebody after work.
But there is just not so many things for me to look forward to.

I've not facebooked for 2 weeks.
I use the comp only when i need to do my ELOG.
I only get to sit down and watch the TV twice a week for most only 1 hour/day.
I only have water training every twice a week.
I no longer go to church.
I no longer do gym with my team.
I don't even know the status of my team (how's everyone doing and all).
All i do everyday after work is to look forward to the weekends so i can water train again.
Text messages are hardly replied.
I spend more time with my pet compared to pepper.
I spend more time with my sport shoes than with my friends.
I spend more time crying than i eat.
I'm even too lazy to have dinner.
I eat so much breakfast the next day cos i know that i'm not going to have dinner again the next evening.
I run to kill my heartache.
I cry to cover up for the emptiness.
Sometimes i don't even know what am I doing in life.
And now all i have hope is just to get myself something back from water fest.
'cos if i don't, i really dono what am i doing here.
why am i always crying every night.
that nothing actually helps anymore.



yes, that's what i'm going through.
go ahead and pity me.

till next time>>

rainbow after the rain

YAY! i managed to convert the video and upload it here. i'm not that noob afterall (:

I remembered on our 1st month, darling made a video for me. so for the 1st aniversary, it's my turn (: enjoy love!

Met up with clique yesterday for catching up and xiangyuan's birthday celebration. They are seriously the best people to catch up about work as they know exactly what i'm facing and how i feel. BEST LA! It was just fun and laughter throughout. Of course, we never fail to put xiang yuan to some awful pranks. guess what? we made him so touched that he cried, made him awfully full and became a merlion. hahahahah. Great start to my weekends :D

Training compensated for the miscommunication. I feel so much better to release all the accumulated sadness. So it's much easier to get things settled.

I'm fine again. thanks to"you all know who you are" for hearing me out when i needed it (: LOVE YOU ALL!

There was an indescribable fear. I was scared when i had to face you. I had to hold back my tears and control my breathing. Guess things just happened too suddenly and i've never expected it. But now i'm fine and i hope that this will not be forgotten. Let's treat this as a lesson and we'll get even closer from this time on.

back to eLog.

till next time>>

the 11th again!

Doubt i'll be able to come online tomorrow.

HAPPY anniversary DARLING!

can't load the video here.
i'm a comp noob ):

hypnosis

Guess it's because he behaves like a girl tt's why we communicate so well.
how not to believe?
Monday blues.
i spilled tea on myself today.
Weekends felt like wonderland.
now i'm back to life
and down with cough )O:


i'm looking forward to Friday badly.
I'm meeting clique.
can't wait mann..
i'm sure we have sooooo much to update on.
excited mannnnnnnnn!
and needless to say, THURSDAY & SUNDAY!
i miss him so badly ):
argh.. i'm sounding like a sticky tape again.

lights out!
good night!

till next time>>

short one

weekends are ending ):

i love training
i love pepper
i love bigger
i love java
i love my new red ear piece (:

till next time>>