Attachment is over, presentation is over.
but i don't really seem happy.

it feels kind of weird.
i didn't take dinner last night, i skipped breakfast today and i didn't take any lunch too but im still not hungry. guess there are just too many things happening that i'm losing my appetite or maybe it's just the presentation that got me really stressed up.

Im still glad that it is over and i hope that i will do well for it (cross fingers).
and now i can finally get my wish of training everyday. It drowns the sorrows and keep me going.

yes, talking about too many things happening, i dono why am i so unlucky. ytd, i got my report screwed, presentation unprepared and i had to stay up till late to prepare for this important day which is today. Today, before my turn, the base of my heels just came off. and if i pull it out, i'll be walking barefooted. During presentation, my voice was shivering like mad but during the Q&A, i got abit excited that i think i shocked one of the lecturer. (still keeping fingers crossed)
but it definitely adds on to the thanksgiving sharing on thurs.

and yes, thurs is my birthday!
yay!
finally for once in my life i'm happy about birthday.
:D


my mind is not really functioning very well now. my brain feels frozen and hard like a stone.


bye bye

girls are random

i want to take God as my BFF
Just like how i share everything with my friends and bf.
I want to miss Him like how i always miss my friends and bf.
i want to know more about Him like how much i want to learn about the lives of my friends and bf.
And at the same time, take Him as my strength and support who never fails me.

aside from that, im so glad that i went back to school and saw my friends! can't wait for school to resume! :D

And im so glad that saturday is coming cos i can finally see my bf for 2 consecutive days! :D

I love everyone deep deep!

it's not about the quantity

for the 4 months of attachment; 1 month once (:
and i remember i use to watch movies once/ twice a year only or in the past, not even once in the year. hahah.
so i suppose movies are really luxuries to me.

btw, my birthday is coming!
need ideas to get something for me?
T-shirts will do (:
cos school is starting again!


Made a job application.
and i hope i'll get it.

till next time>>

add-ons

i forgot to mention about saturday.
Saturday the whole senior girls team came down again! :D :D yea.. Just keep going!
All of us did the same sets and gosh.. I must say, i totally disappoint in K2. My seating was wrong, i shifted until my seat went slanted right and obviously i wasn't able to focus. my strength and stamina is not up so i caouldn't give much in the boat. Im so scared cos i was like such a heavy load. But i'll surely make a come back. Just bear with it for 1 more week.

3 more days

last week was pretty fruitful despite the fact that it passed really very slowly, slower than a snail.
On Monday, i made my way down for gym training in school because I wanted to pass Kelvin the money for the windbreaker. Woah, i haven't entered school since 3 months ago when I had my attachment briefing. If I had a chance to go to south canteen, I think I'll just kneel there and cry. I miss school, I miss my friends )':
okay, that's beside the point. So surprisingly I wasn't very late for training. By the time i changed, it was 6.15pm. To cut short, it wasn't a regret that I went down as I can confidently do bench press since my teammates are there to support (:

Tuesday was out for Gamer and Wednesday was out with the GIRLS team (some of them didn't make it though) with 2 special girly guests :D and Time traveler's wife with yen, sher and rainie after B&J.
Thurs was cell and Friday met pepper after his attachment.


and Sunday is 20th, my brother's 21st!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
and i have a very random confession. When I was younger, I use to think that it is so unfair to have him as my brother because I wanted him to be my boyfriend instead. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

kays, tomorrow is my wonderful public holiday :D
finally sleeping without an alarm :D :D :D :D :D


Tues, Wed and Friday is my last day at BD.
I'm already getting the holiday mood yo!


till next time>>

can we do it again?

today all the senior girls came.
it's such a happy scene to finally see all of us back!
the feeling is just indescribable, the feeling that we can do it again just came to me.
it felt like we were back to the time when we all did those hardcore stuff together, whine together about the weather, about the water, about practically everything that we can think of to get the pain away.
but those painful and torturing days were just the days that brought us together so close, so bonded. there is so much inside me that i want to tell all of you but it just got stuck somewhere.


we always draw a barrier between the fastest, moderate and i-think-i-am-not fast.
in every point in time, there is always these 3 categories that most will fall into.
but there is just this thing,
the i-think-i-am-not fast would want to improve so that they can be moderate
the moderate would want to improve so that they can be the fastest
and the fastest would want competition so that they can improve which also means they want the i-think-i-am-not fast to go for it so that everything can happen.
we all need each other.
and only if everyone were to want it, we will get it all worked out.


so many of us are stuck in attachment
it is gonna be tough 'cos we are the weekend warriors.
for this sat, we do long D.
others get to train long D and adapt to sprints during the weekdays.
but the next weekend that we come back, we're in sprints.
total killer.

so many of us just came back from exams, fyp and attachment
it is so tough that I just came back from a 1-2 months break from not training and all i do is relax and eat.
training is going to be hell and i still need to meet the training demands within such a short time.
training days are gonna be killer.

so many has got attachment coming
arghh.. hate it when i train like hell, get all fit and strong and end up still going back to attachment.
which also make me go to the weekend warrior category.
what a pain.


there are just so many things that are happening. we hate it, we complain about it, we just don't know what else to do.
but the fact that there is still a thought of coming for training on one of the saturday after soooo long, just proves that we still want to row be it just for the sake of leisure.


i'm so sure that all the senior girls team did win themselves something before in a race.
and this just shows that we are not not-fast.
if we can once do it before, we can definitely do it again.
we are the strong people.
it just depends on whether we want to do it for one another.


if only one person can say that she wants to go for training, and another girl says she'll go because the other girl is going, it will lead to all other girls coming down.
even just thinking that i'm coming down because i want to suntan, it is at least the first sign of getting into the bonding system.
if all of us can do it for one another, i'm sure we can all make a come back.
it's just whether we want to make the first move all over again and do it for the sake of the team.
we can still complain don't we? it's human nature and after complaining, we still train hard.


i'm so looking forward to seeing everyone again.
cos it is really great to see all of you around!
:D

happy 12, happy day, happy birthday

Happy 2009 birthday to mom!

*age is such a sensitive issue to ladies so keep it to 2009 will do ;)

over to mahattan for dinner with mum and i'm so sure she enjoyed herself :D
just a simple dinner to express our gratitude to her for all these years for all the tough times she has gone through with us.
and it is a pretty good gathering since all of us are always busy.
Bros will always talk about army and now school stuff,
and i dono why the rest of us started talking about worms.
gross and out of topic -.-
anw, happy birthday to MOM!


and check this out.. are all fishermen jerks?

training today was good..
that i actually got sunburn.
Felt like i'm back to year 1, worrying about getting sunburns all over again.

till next time>>

great is Friday (Pepper's edition)

It's the great 15th! :D
although it's just another month, it still mean a lot to me.
Your extra effort to meet me after training and having a simple dinner with me made today extra special.
The recent months haven't been smooth sailing but your love and patience kept me going and has cultivated in me a never-gonna-get-bored-of-you attitude.
I am very very thankful for you, someone who will always make an effort to make me happy.

ilu, darling.

till next time>>

hardcore.

my brain is failing me,
my body is screwed.

I'm going to have a terrible life after youth.
how dreadful.

flex baby flex

who says only guys can flex?

URGGGGGHHHHHH! don't play play!
:D

till next time>>

simple is nice

there is actually no need to create all the trouble
'cause by going straight home after work,
go out for a good run,
and go back for a good dinner,
makes the best Friday that anyone can ever want.

and to think how foolish I was today, trying to make my Friday a good one when there is actually no need.

I still love Fridays :D

thursday

Not by my wisdom,
Not by my strength
Gently you guide me,
Lead me by hand.

Total surrender,
Jesus I am yours
Now and forever,
In Christ I now stand.

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The thought that this week pass by so slowly seem to apply to me only. It should be a good news since I'm ONLY halfway through my report and I still have a Power Point to complete. However I really miss the hardcore trainings that I use to have for the past 2 years around this period of time ):
seriously, i don't understand why is it that whenever I'm going to leave a specific place for good then I start to open myself up and interact with people. I have such low EQ D:

Had dinner with some of my colleagues yesterday and now everyone, I mean really EVERYONE (who knows me) knows that I love to eat and can eat A LOT.
kays, i'm going to burn my tummy (I didn't mention fats) tomorrow (:

TGTIF
Thank God Tomorrow Is Friday :D

till next time>>