2 MORE days

seriously, i suspect pep's my long lost brother or something. I cannot help but think that we really look alike!

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2 MORE days..

was down to row at seletar for the last time before polite.
I really hope this is it. No matter what, mind takes over situation.
No time to panic, no chance to lose.
This is it.
Tomorrow will be down to macRitchie to test out the water.
I hope i'll like it.
Omg. I'm typing ultra fast now and it's all in really short sentences.
I'm nervous, excited, scared, worried, happy......
just like how i felt last year.
This is the feeling i kept hoping to get for the past few weeks before our big race.
and i'm getting it. i can't stop. i NEED TO DO THIS!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i'm excited!
I'm really very EXCITEDDDDD!

i'm not really sure but since mind takes over,
I'M READY! I'M READY! I'M READY!

Just like how we did it as a team. We'll do it again. We'll create history.
Work together as a TEAM!

p.s. High school musical songs are totally suitable for all occasions!

till next time>>

DETERMINATION

A well-earned experience and a good whole day spent with pepper last sunday.
Though my mind never fails to complain about how sleepy it was, i still manage to get through my studies despite the whole day of activities. Good thing i had pepper too. He is really my ultimate alarm clock (:

Two consecutive tests are over and i just submitted my RS report. Life should be better now till my common test starting from next friday. Time to buck up after polite.

Polite is in another 4 days time.
No longer thinking of my fears,
no longer worrying about the situation.
I'm so ready to go out anytime as long as my mind tells me to.
Last chance to get this right.
This is OUR race,
Let's work together as a T-E-A-M.


till next time>>

brave the storm

Go for it.

1 week half

no time for AOB.

tests for this week are over, left with PI&C (MON) and Achem (TUES) next week. Assignments to submit by the following week then it'll be CMT.
schedule is quite well spread out in general but the mon and tues is gonna kill cos there's multiple trainings. God bless me, AMEN.

Regatta this sunday and POLITE next saturday.
FOCUS
it's all about strength, power and mind.
last chance, gotta make it.

lastly, maths is so nice W/O probability and too bad for us, we have probability the whole sem.

till next time>>

and you think you get the worse?

seeing it so obvious right before my eyes, i presume it's for me to address to it.

looking at how you actually see the whole situation, it seems like everyone else is wrong and you're right but everyone just seem to be going against you.



okay, shall cut the crap and get into topic.

firstly, right from the beginning, i knew that this day will come. Many kept telling me that you're still young and in time to come you'll grow up and understand. So i listened and didn't want to think too much as i might be wrong and it's true that you need time to know what we're doing for you is good.

However, according to the situation, i just cannot help it but to mention this:
If you really hate your family and think that your friends are the best, think again.
Why not look at it like that:

• In the first place, can your friends even bring you anywhere?
• are they the ones paying for your school fees?
• are they the ones giving you money to get food?
• when you're doing wrong, are they there to correct you or are they just being idiots supporting you all the way? (yes, you may think they're good since they are supporting you but you're WRONG in the first place)
• when it's exam period, are they there to revise your school work with you?
• do you think that one day if you're homeless, they'll take you in to stay for life?

there are still so much more that i can think of by comparing your friends with your family especially only at your age.

Next, you think that you're from a lousy family. Okay, i don't deny this to a certain extent since i once thought so when i was younger. But i've never thought that my friend, only child with a maid to serve her is very good. Having a maid is good? have you seen what you've got? you have a mother out there to wash your clothes, handle your meals, getting others to make sure you're full and nice every single day? Moreover, she get people to tutor you and make sure that you don't fail your exams. is this not more than what a maid can do?

thirdly, you always think that they're all ganging up against you. is there so much time for them to do such stupid things to come together to go against you? i'm sure if they can't be bothered with you, they'll just ignore you and let you die alone. do you see the reason why they're always saying you? It's so that you can see what you've done wrong. you think that they've never been in your shoes. Have you tried being in theirs? Do you think that being a senior and you have a junior being so rude to you when you're trying to correct her is nice? And you think that being rude makes yourself very high and mighty? In others eyes, they'll only think that you're an ill mannered kid who has no parents to teach.

Fourthly, back to the second point, you think that having a maid is best. So i conclude that your friend's family is rich. I can tell you that your family is not rich but havent you got the best from them already? Do you see me eating pizza hut, fish & co., swensen's... as and when i like? i can tell you this. i've never even eaten teppanyaki before. and the last time i ate swensen's? i can only remember the last time i had it was like when i was in secondary 1. and mind you, i went to swensen's just for the ice cream, not even a full meal. if you think that you're unfortunate, how about being in my shoes?

everyone is trying to fulfil what you ask for. once they can't fulfil one which they really think buy/spending on it is really going to be hard, you think that they're lying to you. If they can have a better life, do you think they will reject it? do you think your mum has to slog so hard everyday to earn money to pay for what you always ask for? do you think the rest of your siblings want to start working even while studying? aren't they already doing their best for you?

you've been looking too much into owning what you WANT that you're blaming your family for not giving them to you. while they're trying so hard just to satisfy your needs. you may think that what i'm saying is against you again and it's all a total crap. but what i can say is, if you think that i have nothing better to do than to start telling you these, you're wrong as i still have a whole chunk of reports for me to complete and tests coming up.


go think about it. you know who you are.


till next time>>



so much talking on my side, it still depends on you if you really want to reflect upon it.
i see no point in telling this face-to-face with you since i know that you'll just shut me off with what i call your "lousy attitude".

used to be

wake up call


was just browsing through my old post.
came across those posts which are all about coming polite. once so motivated, so determined, so excited. it's a "cannot do without winning" attitude. Now all i see in me is fear, distraction, and stress upon self. it's no longer the attitude i used to have. remember those post which i kept counting down to polite. starting from day 19. which is around this time as well. haven't gotten that feeling yet. hopefully training will bring me to it tomorrow. i can't afford to lose.

think:
it's all a fresh start
everyone stands a certain chance
never give up for there is no limit to best
i need to pick myself back up again like how i once did.


i'm scared. there is phobia.
only i can bring myself out of this situation.
i've got to try.

till next time>>

note to self

1111 (:

now, focus MEL.
your competition is coming soon.
and all your tests..
week 5 (blah), week 6 (blahblah), week 7 (blahblahblah)... week 9 COMMON TEST. how exciting.
calendar indicates a big POLITE word.
nvm about all that. just FOCUS.


Our significant characteristics:


tomorrow will be another chance,
another try,
another day to make mistakes.
make good use of it.

till next time>>

DETERMINED

READY for anything.

trying to achieve that very feeling every set. even if we don't, we'll improve. keep improving since there is never a limit for us. All focused and ready to go.

i miss chew jian ming big big BIG BIG time.

met him only once so far this week which is wednesday for less than 3 hours since he now train at some other place ):

i've to work tomorrow means i can't meet him again ): ): ):

oh yes! monitor lizard at seletar. omg.

till next time>>

so random, so random

Jacob's oatmeal cereal with apricot/apple biscuit is seriously so de li ciou s s s s s !

:D

SUNNY SUNDAY

OKLEY OKLEY OKLEY OKLEY OKLEY

He see me in his OKLEY.

A HUNGRY BENj is an ANGRY BENj

and,

A HUNGRY MEL is an ANNOYED MEL

you get what i mean hor

hahahahahahahahah ;D

over to pepper's place to complete the reports and before i get to do my excel, he was playing the soccer game and ya, he is a Liverpool fan. was talking about sneaking this little jersey he has the other time. it's exactly the same as his real jersey la. omg. super cute! and the mini one has the 3 strip just like the real adidas jersey. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Dinner was on pepper's sis at PUTIEN with his mum too.
omg, their yam stuff is superb. too bad pepper doesn't appreciate.
nice ambient and nice food and nice company (:
i love YAM BIG TIME! hahahah.

after all the food, it's burning off and building up my body tomorrow.
haven't had gym for a week and it just doesn't feel right.
more weights, heavy weights, stronger me!

okay, time to head off to bed.
the feeling of being late for school is sick.

till next time>>