summary of 2009

2009's coming to an end.
This year, I've experienced the best and worse that I could take.

Religion
From leaving that old place to feeling homeless and neglected to now finding hope once again. From where I am now, I learn so much and applying them to things that I really needed help in. But somehow, I still haven't learn to apply what I learn into my daily life i.e, only giving thanks to things that I receive and not for those that I do not get. Plus those impatience and anger (etc.) that I do not change which makes me a really sucky person (i know that).

Attachment
Experience how it is like to wake up at 5am every morning and chionging down in cab with a cab fare of at least $25 if I were to be late. Having countless nightmares of being late for work and the most torturous 4 months of being separated from my clique. There were also really frequent visits to RP 'cos my company bus stops at woodlands. It was also due to attachment that I had to forgo my part-time job and became jobless since then.

Kayaking
The most complicated yet most satisfying experience of the 3 years. It was where I learn that as long as talent is not involved, only hardwork and sacrifices counts. Definitely, it will be rewarded.
This year I was paired up with Partner too! Went through all the crazy trainings/races which I never thought I could. Going into boat control with a K2/K1/K4 for the first time. Which is totally awesome. Training days are not the sweetest experience but it is the most hardcore moulding kind which come to think of it is going to be the most memorable.

R/S with B
Not a very smooth sailing year but it's just the beginning I'm sure. And just looking at the other problems in life, it will somehow affect this factor in some way or another which makes it a bumpy ride. 2010 will be fabulous I know 'cos you're going to be an adult in army! I'm kind of looking forward to 2010 (: hahah


Year 2009 is indeed fulfilling and I know I've became someone who I no longer know anymore. Somehow it's just part of life that I know will be over but since I'm into it, I'll just play the role until it's time to stop. I can only be a 19 for a year. After this, I'll no longer be able to play a fool like this and run away when problems arises. Responsibilities will start to pile up and running will no longer be a solution. This year is also the year that I cried the most. NOT only because of B but things that I'd rather keep it inside forever 'cos I know that the world is a lie and I want to hide away forever.

Tomorrow is 2010. New year, same resolution 'cos it's still only halfway fulfilled.
Just one more request that 2010 will be the best year EVER! (:

till next YEAR! :D

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges

bring me back to what I use to be

I miss gym now,
I need want to row,
but i'm so tired.
and look at the time now.

):

now i'd rather gym 'cos rowing is giving me thousands of abrasions, hands are back to suffering from those blisters and hate it when my right butt numbs halfway through the rounds.

where has my enthusiasm towards long D gone to? I use to LOVE long D like siao and thinks that abrasions, blisters and muscle aches after each session is shiokness.
I didn't have butt numbness in the past though.
I need the enthusiasm again! the JOY of rowing long D and getting faster after each round.

till next time>>

smurfing good time

Another Sunday for us to wake up early, and crawl out of bed for morning service.

Train coincidentally came in together at Tanah Merah and we travelled down to Expo.

After service, BK-ed and Metro-ed at Expo.

Down to present hunt for hours and we got really exhausted from all the walking.
Knocked out flat in the train and back home for dinner.
trained home after.

Nothing beats being with B although we had tons of bickering (and i know it's just stupid on my part).
Still, just being with you is awesome (:
It's the silly you that makes you really really special to me (:


and i look forward to more sundays like that (minus bickering)
(:

till next time>>

lost and found

I know I cannot do it myself.
and I know that if I have to do it alone, I'll rather give it up.
Thanks Partner for being so willing to be my partner again (*:

Last night's Christmas performance was great
so glad that I was there (:
and I thought I could stay over at my Uncle's place which is so near to Church but I have to come back home for training today.
Although I can go over now but the butt abrasions that I've just got just doesn't allow me to move much ):


there's this really irritating sour feeling and annoying thought in my mind which just came
even frowning doesn't help.

till next time>>

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

a season to be jolly :D
let's party but at the same time remember the real meaning of Christmas i.e, the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ (:

Till next time >>

L.O.L

seriously, blend that sickening orange instead!

mountain tortoise going to town

parkway parade for the 1st time in my life..
and loves 313 F21 :D
MANGO is so filled with sweater furry thing flying around -.-



my left eye have been giving me a lot of trouble the entire day and i'm going to dig it out to wash now (:

till next time>>

and i still see every greatness in this sport

(:



recently, I can't help but to think back over the past years of rowing. It's almost coming to my 3rd year of rowing. The amount of time dedicated to this sport; is just something that not everyone can experience. I still remember how my clique will always say "aiya, why so no life, always go rowing?" and I know it sounds familiar to all of us who dedicate our after school time and majority of our holidays rowing. And so much so that friends around us start to get use to it as well and they start going gyming with us (:
It's just very incredible. This sport has brought us so much pain, and suffering yet teaching us to enjoy the pain and know that victory comes only if we can endure through them. Many times it's not only being physically fit but also to cross over our mental barrier.
and everytime i look back at those pictures, I can't help but to really feel a sense of nostalgia.


kays, I'm not trying to be post-exam EMO. Just that I JUST received all the past competition's photos.

till next time>>

the slightest thing..

.. affects
.. can make me give a whole lot of reason to think wild
.. makes me upset
.. Makes me laugh like there's no tomorrow
Simply because you mean so much.

studying kills. I miss rowing/gyming :(

Till next time>>

EIGHTEENTH MONTH

As time goes by, I'm starting to..
appreciate soccer (only 'cos Liverpool goalkeeper is damn charming),
play UEFA World cup on your lappy,
trouble about my shrinking biceps..
so apparently, I'm becoming a guy ):

and I know you're becoming like me too ;D

LOVE YOU B! HAPPY 18th!

till next time>>

happy birthday Jelly!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JELLY!
She's the kind of friend who stays when the rest of the world leaves you.
:D

Till next time>>

prison break

and he still keeps trying.. -.-

reflection

Bigger, my terrapin, is really getting out of hand. He starts crawling out of his cage and wouldn't eat his food. Never mind, let him be.
Recently, he started scratching me when i attempt to put him back to his home. Never mind, let him be.
Just now, he went crazy and started crawling around the kitchen and hid under the table and when i tried to put him back, he started scratching me and tried to escape when i placed him down. So I've made up my mind to be cruel and give him detention.



Until you learn how to behave! Else you'll have no freedom! *frowns*

Till next time>>

when stress takes over

like sister, like sister (;

till next time>>

with love

your TLC that melts my heart (: