all i can think of is cry

I feel so out of this world.
yes, i feel like an alien.
I'm so lost in everything.
All I remember everyday is that i have work the next day.
I look forward to meeting somebody after work.
But there is just not so many things for me to look forward to.

I've not facebooked for 2 weeks.
I use the comp only when i need to do my ELOG.
I only get to sit down and watch the TV twice a week for most only 1 hour/day.
I only have water training every twice a week.
I no longer go to church.
I no longer do gym with my team.
I don't even know the status of my team (how's everyone doing and all).
All i do everyday after work is to look forward to the weekends so i can water train again.
Text messages are hardly replied.
I spend more time with my pet compared to pepper.
I spend more time with my sport shoes than with my friends.
I spend more time crying than i eat.
I'm even too lazy to have dinner.
I eat so much breakfast the next day cos i know that i'm not going to have dinner again the next evening.
I run to kill my heartache.
I cry to cover up for the emptiness.
Sometimes i don't even know what am I doing in life.
And now all i have hope is just to get myself something back from water fest.
'cos if i don't, i really dono what am i doing here.
why am i always crying every night.
that nothing actually helps anymore.



yes, that's what i'm going through.
go ahead and pity me.

till next time>>