fickle mind

i was broading over it when i was showering, on my way to work, during my break and when i was going home.
and i realise that it came so hard on me because i treasured you as a very dear friend.
i want to take back what i've said.
i admit i was very hot-headed at that point of time.
but i just don't want this to affect the rest of the days that are coming.
why am i always like that?
come on. just slap me.

and

i know i'm mad for thinking like that.
i know that he'll hate me for thinking like that.
cos i'll be unreasonable for thinking like that when i know in the first place that there is nothing.
okay.. i really dono what's up with me these few days.
i'm getting serious depression soon.
come on. slap me again.

girls,
i think i'm deprived of happiness.
hurry bring me out to play.

see, tell me i'm mad.
cos i was damn depressed ytd, got happy again and i'm like that again today.
then cry and cry and cry.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
are these the symptoms of depression?

till next time>>