'cause we belong together now

i was ON TIME for work today ((((:


training was GOOD GOOD GOOD.
seeing many people train makes me happy (:
okay, today i guess there are almost full attendance.
yea! that's the way mann team.
i love you all (:
and i really can't wait for chalet especially saturday.
had a deal with Sherlyna that we'll have mac's $2.50 meal, change drink to ice milo ;D
traveling down TOGETHER to train is gonna be the coolest thing ever!
i need to chill.
i'm being extremely excited now.


training timings has changed.
to earlier.
i think i should be sad cos the chances of being late is obviously higher
but the fact that i can meet *ahem* on every weekend down to lsr, it takes all the pain away (:
ya, just call me super glue.
i love sticking to him.
my primary purpose is still TRAINING la... honest.


hair's still very wet and i'm making full use of the time to blog before i stop for another week again.
oh yes thank God tomorrow is 12-5pm shift. phew.


till next time>>

it's time for our turn.

spend 2 days at Bedok reservoir for MR500.
nope, i didn't compete but Pepper did.
and of course, 3 of my teammates namely, Joyce, Jingting and Alfred.

Dream of pepper's K2 race last night, woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. For some reason i couldn't remember what was my dream. Did he win or lose? I guess it didn't matter.

Pepper did well for his Heats yesterday as well as his finals today (:
he is still disappointed at some mistakes.
but i'm already very proud of him!
WELL DONE :D

---

through these 2 days, i experienced the team work they had which makes my goosebumps stand.
you know, the kind that you feel extremely motivated, want to whack and thrash the rest that kind of feeling which will make your hair stand?
I miss this kind of feeling among us.
Actually, i miss training with my team. seriously as a TEAM.
i miss everyone's presence and the unity that we once were in the lead of others.
i miss all of you people.
i really do.
i can't wait for my chalet to come.
it's finally bonding time.
only me and my team :D

---

time to train harder before my attachment starts.
it's really time i train as hard as pepper.



thanks for being my motivation.

till next time>>

birthdays

polaroid credits: melvin

over to Yong Ann's birthday chalet and i realise birthdays can be really fun with the right people around (:
and i don't mind if my birthday is coming soon.

training tomorrow is compulsory for ME.
cos i have the shed key. argh... and i'm so dead cos my motivation is not rowing tomorrow ):
never mind, i'll still go through it.


suddenly i miss pepper a lot although i just met him not long ago ):

gloomy sky turns sunny

hardly get to see my blog stagnant for so long right?

okay first, my title totally contradicts the real weather 'cos it's raining now and it was mad sunny in the morning.

well still, from the gloomy morning, i finally confessed my thoughts to PEPPER and i'm glad again (:

i learn something from rowing today:
when i'm angry, i can row faster but feeling all wrinkled up and OLD.
when i'm sad, i row till the sun set.
when i'm happy, i row with a smile and i can have sudden boost of energy.

today's training was hmmm... not much comments since it's the same as last week.
but i have Hueyyen to accompany me (:
you know, rowing alone with the guys is quite.. torturing. right?


work yesterday was the best so far.
part-timers OWNAGE!
6 part-timers in all.
Before 6pm, there wasn't many people around so 4 of us who worked full were chatting about movies, books, cute guys, shopping, school...
then came 2 guys, 1 of which is a newbie called Albie. HAHAH! rhyme right (;
funny people also.
and i was partnered with Albie for night duty. I'm finally a senior P/T there mann!
and i saw Pepper's C. omg. got a shock of my life 'cos i was in that kuku uniform of mine and i so felt like digging a hole and hide myself.


was looking at my calendar a few days ago. totally shocked that my holidays are ending SO soon.
i havent even started playing yet!
all i did this holiday was like training, work, training, work..
although i really enjoy what i'm doing now, but i still need some time off to like maybe play for 2-3 days then get back. maybe after Pepper's race (:

gotta go for YA's birthday chalet.

till next time>>

start to end, JOYCEFUL

GPA is out this morning!
checked before going for training. did much much better this sem but my GPA didn't increase much.
oh wells (:
like what xiang yuan said, the hot dog, bread, pepsi, and missing trainings, it's all worth it.

rained in the morning but still went down for training.
8 rounds with Sherlyna and ya, exciting RANDOM sprint sets.
really very random.
K2 with Luqman.
laugh till my jaw almost drop.
hahahahahahah.

long john silver with teammates.
Home.
Napped, over-napped.
late for meet-up with Joyce :/

went for my 1st Aston BBQ chicken, 1st gelare waffle, cine KOUFU to sit.
chatted, catch up with life, talked about practically EVERYTHING!
it's nice when you can speak freely without hesitation.
about movies, schools, food, Pepper, friends, church, God...
seriously, meeting up with Joyce is what i really call catching up.
and we still have so much in common (:
hi-5!

went over to city hall to look for Pepper and he sacrificed by taking the red-line with me until i reach Yishun.
say bye bye and home.

home, everyone is at home!
full attendance before anyone goes to bed.
what a rare chance.
we need another picnic!


TODAY IS GREAT!
good weather, good people, good activities.
I cannot ask for more!
Thank God for such a day (:


training again tomorrow.
and NO work (:


till next time>>

Nicholas's birthday

last saturday was celebrating Nicholas's birthday at NYNY.
(:

life is great with short hair.
convenient and easy to handle after shower.
but out of love for long hair, i want it long.
now i cannot decide 'cos i like both !!

till next time>>

Monday blues YELLOW :D


when i first wake up in the morning, i always love it when i get msges from my friends. at least i know that my existance count (:
ya, Pepper's msges are compulsory so it's as important (:

was late for work.
well, it was on purpose :/
felt really sleepy and all so i've decided to just dally my time out for work.
had my chance to be HOST at work. it's like the first time doing something more than a waitress. I'm learning so much more from this job, seriously. but it's quite scary especially when i get nervous, i'll go tongue tight and my voice gets really soft ):
i need more chances to train up my GUTS!
(:

after work, had a last minute decision to meet Pepper for lunch before i go for training. SUBWAY at NORTHPOINT! it's like the first time i think northpoint finally made a right decision cos they build subway. i know there's one in TP also but i don't want to eat alone after work la. and Bishan is always full. yay! i'll definitely be their regular. right darling ;D

went home to unpack my work stuff, got my training attire, rubberband, out to school.

training was good.
i know my weights dropped tremendously and i totally hate the feeling of sprinting. headaches and jaw pain.
but i totally enjoy the training tgt as a team thing. We haven't trained tgt for really really long. although some of them wasn't around, i still enjoy the feeling of training tgt. so felt like YOOSH-ing la! :D

decided to go for training tomorrow 'cos the thought of doing some random sprint sets excites me (:
and i'll be able to eat lunch with my teammates (:
YAY! i know you are all happy (:

i'm so happy today!
and i know tomorrow will be another happy day.
i'm meeting JOYCE LIM JIAO LIN TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!


till next time>>

little kids

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HAHAHAHAH!
was over to pepper's place and he showed me his photos from pri 6 to sec 5.
and i think his primary 6 one is the most adorable! so insisted on bringing it home to scan ;D
he look like a primary 2 kid!
haven't change much huh..
i can seriously stare at it and stay happy the entire day!

mine's when i'm in primary 2.
yup, same hair style (:


and guess what we did over at his place today?
we watched POKEMON movie from year 2000-2001.
HAHAH!
childhood memories.
(:

telly, rubber band, dinner and home.
(((:


work scheduled for coming week is pathetic
but good.
more rest, more pepper days (:
work starts tomorrow, train in the evening.
BURN THE KILOS!

till next time>>

timbuk2 is back into my arms again :D
Pepper must be crying in his sleep now cos timbuk2 is no longer by the side of his bed.
LOL

was very determine to make it down for training today after sinning at NYNY ytd and screwing up my sets.
but i didn't manage to hear my alarm and my bioclock only sounded after 10am.

did i mention that i lose a kilo?
my muscles are back to fats.
i seriously need to do more weights.


...

yes and no.
but i have my reasons.
i only want to portray my smiles to you.
so that you'll not worry for me.

Blessed - Christina Aguilera


till next time>>

HAPPY 9th Month

and it's also 1 year from our first prata session after mr500 last year on 9th March.

she's such love (:

A man is lucky if he is the FIRST love of a woman.
A woman is lucky if she is the LAST love of a man.
-Charles Dickens

wa, this is like my dream to fulfill this ever since young! HAHAH!

found this super cool picture of Joyce and me (:
see, my hair damn classic. center parting and 2 ponytail tails :D
and i'm so going to meet her on TUESDAY after work! YAY!!!
i'll drop by on saturday to see you too!

till next time>>

it's time i stay strong

it's not a rash decision.
i'm not one who always sticks to my decision.
tell me something and i'll be taken in most of the time.

all along, i've taken you as a mentor, a very dear person to me since i knew you.
i've respected you and even if i was reprimanded, i knew it was for my own good.
time and time again i disappointed you when you handle a new task to me.
you were the one who brought me to Him, and you taught me about Him,
you taught me many life skills and shared with me many life stories that nobody will be bothered to.
all credit goes to you for bringing me up just like your very own daughter.
but somehow, not all things go well.
i'm not influenced, i chose it this way.
i was very affected by what you told me and i felt so soft, wanting to go back.
but, i'm afraid that things will go back to how it is.
i'm too afraid.
i don't dare to face it all over again.
i no longer dare to face you.
i don't deny that i'm running away.
and i want to run far.
all i can try to do is continue my Faith in Him.

---

I'm enjoying work pretty much.
but i'll be really sad when Angelique goes back to indonesia end April.
she's really dear to me.
especially when part-timers hardly work on weekdays which leaves me really sad being alone ):


so far still so good.
i'm enjoying my holidays; drowning myself with work and training.
(ya, i call that enjoyment)
so that i wun die when attachment comes (:

till next time>>

to be continued...

2nd post of the day and i still cannot remember what i wanted to say from just now.

so today,
accompanied PEPPER to work,
accompanied mum to get her bodyshop stuff,
home.

and i'm happy with my lazy life (:
don't have to fret about the... shit! i havent revise my work for the paper on monday! hahahahh!
yay!

oh ya, mum just got me the 3M NEXcare acne patch and i'm starting to use it already. 'cos i've been like koping it from my bro and i'm afraid i'll finish his.
i've like 3 spots of it on my face now.

and now, i've nothing to say. off for dinner.
BYEEEEEEEE!

till next time>>

3 consecutive working days, and out of it 2 were training days.
yesterday was training day alone.
today, i've nothing on (:

training was pretty good especially on wednesday.
Lunch with joanna and junwei,
went to find PEPPER who was having lunch with his teammates,
played UNO halfway through at the coffeeshop,
went over to plaza singapura as CM changes his phone,
went to play arcade games,
and comes the dreadful thing i.e. WORK ):
but, PEPPER sent me over and got me old chang kee (:

it's not really abt the work that i dislike.
it's just the "i'm having so much fun now and i cannot bear to leave feeling" that i dread.
well, the moment i entered workplace, all's well (:

have been having slight gastric pain from late lunch and no dinner or extremely late dinner. Body is kind of screwed. and the meals i take are kind of crap. like old chang kee before work as dinner and sushi for dinner after work. no wonder my biceos are still aching from monday's training. 4 whole days! first time ever!

i've been praying very faithfully recently, crying things out to him and my life is brightening up a lot (:
that's the wonder of my heavenly FATHER.

till next time>>

very very ignorant indeed and i cannot believe i just realise this.

it's time i start reflecting.

but i'm glad this is finally revealed..

the truth is never pleasant to the ears.
and i accept, i'm one like that.




till next time>>

for real, like what jocelyn say, she cried while watching marley and me.
needless to say for people who have ultra super active tear glance.
i didn't expect the crying will be so exaggerated.
hahahhahahahahah!
it's really like the SOB SOB SOB, tears flowing literally like a TAP!
even for my mucus also!
hahahahahahahahahhahah!
and you know, i was crying so back like those HUR HUR HUR and my whole body shakes tt kind?
like i just failed my Os or something.
omg.
hahahhahahahah!
the show is really nice.
if you're one dog lover or if you have a dog or just a pet, i bet you'll cry as bad as me.
hahahahha.
and i think Pepper did tear a lil' right?
HAHAHAHAHHHAHA!


now my heart is thumping like mad.
i need to chill.
chill.
chill.
just say what i have to say and everything will be fine.
chlll

till next time>>

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

today seem like a better day

slept like a log and missed training.
then home till it's time to meet pepper.
went to get my FBT shorts and looked around.

my mouth is getting really mean.
it kind of went a little overboard that pepper had to remind me.
(but please, i DON'T use vulgarities okay!)
i know i was bad but i just couldn't control my sickening mouth.
i'll try to keep in mind.
and i'll try to be nice.
i'm not upset.
i just cannot accept that fact that i know i'm wrong, yet i don't want to change for the better.

finally another movie with pepper on tues after work.
FINALLY (:

and i'll be self-training tmr.
REMINDER!! self discipline

till next time>>

say bye/ no rush.

initially, it was out of passion but now,
i'm sick of being a puppet.
especially when i wasn't in the best of mood already, he had to come shoot me straight in my face.
bulls eye.
i'm so out of there. forever.
bye.


i've gotta learn to take a step at a time

back to square 1.
i guess i was really expecting too much.
i don't know what else to do.
i don't want to blame you anymore.
cos i know i'm always the impatient one.
just give me one last chance.
i'll really treasure it.
if there is no way to salvage,
i'll just go alone.

we live and we learn to take
One step at a time
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

till next time>>