HSM 3

shall not spoil my mood again with the late for school thing ya.

NOTE TO SELF:
Just that i haven't been very punctual for lessons. time to stop the late night chats, and last minute report chionging till 2 am. time to wake up from all my stupid ideas and start working hard. tests will be coming in on week 5 and week 3 just ended. so ya, work hard mel! don't screw up again.

on a brighter side, it was our turn to catch HSM 3!
yea, nice show indeed. nice songs and all but the flow didn't go as well as HSM 1.
anyhow, it's nice & i like (:
dvd is a must to get once it's out so that i can watch it over and over again that i memorise every line that they say. that just seem like a very wierd hobby of mine.

oh and it's nice going out in threes cos i get to hold 2 hands. how warm (awwww).

okay. and now is the time to finish up the little bits of my report.
TOODLES~

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

training will be even more meaningful tomorrow.

till next time>>

good old monday

back to the monday lab madness.
i never fail to LAUGH my lab sessions away.
i DID contribute kay. just that i can't stop laughing at every little thing that i can think of when i'm in the lab. morning madness. kills the monday blues.
OMG! I JUST REALISE i kept saying MONDAY when it's actually TUESDAY! i must be dreaming!

crazy. this is what i mean monday *ARGH* tuesday madness.

tomorrow's finally rowing again!
Heavenly Father, please hold the rain in your hand till we end training and finish our showering and get under shelter first before the rain starts to drop again. AMEN.

Public holidays are the best.
a good break for me to have a well spent day with pepper though i still had to do a report at his place.
His family were really hospitable. His mum cooked lunch and dinner for us and his sis(s) were all nice and welcoming (:
BUT,
while i was playing "SHRINK" he was having his nap.
when he woke up, i was doing my report as he tries to figure out the way to play PATA PON.
when it's his turn to use the comp, i went to nap.
sleep and eat and sleep. -.-
still, a well spent day at his place sleeping&eating (:
(and i'm still thinking of a way to sneak his liverpool pillow into my house)

till next time>>

so unappreciative

thanks to joce,
we had this online shopping thing going on that made us go crazy.
LOL.
my reports are still stuck there.
i never knew shopping online can be this nice.
just like shopping ard with friends.
without the walking that is (:
i really think i should get this sushi shirt since i work in sushi tei. HA! but i can't really get much since i already promised myself for the 1001 time that i must START saving already. so i'm just getting 1 "miss fetish" tee for myself for working so hard for the past 1 and 1/2 months (:

kind of getting back on track already.
think school start is a good thing.
i'm picking up and i love training more than dreading it.
at least i'll have some discipline to self train these days.
POLITE's really crawling nearer.
i'm scared at the same time trying to really get all the confidence from within.
i know i can do it !!!
TEAMMATES! let's all do it together!
NYP KAYAKING, YOSH!
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what else can i do?
i'm disappointed la.
i'm just trying to run away 'cos i don't want to make myself cry again.
don't talk to me about it.
i'll not talk about it till i'm chilled.
thanks

till next time>>

when there is something to look forward to

thursday is over and it's friday! yay!
i always look forward to fridays (:
yes, you all know why.

was over at work earlier.
things went all smooth today.
no butter fingers and wrong orders.
best, i was aiming at the baked salmon maki from the moment i step in.
and i had a whole load of them after work :D
baked salmon maki is DELIIIIIIIIIICIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

(:
:D
(;
;D

till next time>>

i want to train!

oh boy, rainy days are so not exciting.
all prepared to train today. but why? when i'm ready to train, i can't.
no visible lightnings, no thunders and no rain by 4pm. just that little drizzle which wouldn't really kill.
how sad. means i'll have to get into water without my paddle later. swimming is nice but it just doesn't feel right without the touch of my paddle. haix.

what a bad day.
thank God there is video watching in school library.
Bridget Jones's diary :D
i'll continue the rest now before my swim.

till next time>>

that was the very reason...

have you'll ever thought how it would feel being alone for 3 hours?
it may seem no big deal if you had an aim, direction of what you'll do next.
but obviously that wouldn't be the case.
imagine, 2 hours of break, roaming around aimlessly in the midst of cliques who will be laughing and having the best time of their lives being together with the bunch of folks they're familiar with and having lunch together. Have you'll ever thought? lunch-ing alone among everyone else definitely DON'T feel good at all.
I insisted on going for a useless class not only for the attendance. I've been telling pepper to go for lessons EVERYDAY but if i myself were to skip, does it even make sense? pepper will be disappointed in me.
i'm not here to do some reverse psychology if you think i am. But think about it. Would you be happy if you're alone? at least to me, i HATE it. and i repeat, i HATE it.

and i thought i could get over this terrible phase i had ever since pri and sec school.

till next time>>

a step at a time

the rest was adequate.
finally an increase in my weights ;D
i want to be STRONGER! rawr!
but i think i sprained my neck. *cracks*

just send the first lab report over. good thing it's an easy one since we did it SO last minute. Thank God we had breaks in between lessons to complete some if not, die. especially after training.

LAB early in the morning followed by 4 hours of consecutive lectures after break. goodness me.
i need my daily milk tea dosage again. soon my whole row of teeth will turn yellow. ewww...

alright, time to turn in soon. tomorrow shall start training for my 42KM. wouldn't want to end up crawling back to the finishing line.

nights ppl!

back on track

a week of rest from rowing to recharge and we're back!
though the ache is there, it's still very satisfying especially with the encouragement and motivation from teammates and coach. contented :D

needed a jolt to stay awake for work;

work was great but i was real clumsy and forgetful and careless and the list goes on.
keyed the wrong order, opened a new packet of mochi though there's already one there, spilled the shoyu on the floor. think that's all. not that bad though (;
oh well, sometimes one just has to make mistakes to learn isn't it? and yes, i did learn a lot for once i was scolded by a customer for i was lousy in the plate orientation. deserved it anyway cause no one in the right mind would do what i did. to think about it, it's pretty hilarious.

"Womanizer" kept ringing in my head while i was at work. it's not that i'm thinking that benj's a womanizer or what not...
quite a dumb song about womanizer (like duh!) but it does hypnotize my brain!
till next time>>

i'm back to school (:

back to school!
teachers are all hardcore and stuff. almost every lecture is taught and Cost accounting (CA) was the ultimate cos she finished teaching a whole topic today which is our first lecture with her.
then we had SP3 grouping. yes, draw lots again. Not too bad though since i got my old partner back! hahah. and i love that teacher. she's like (WOW!) so young and called michelle. sounds EVEN younger. hahah. it's just the first day of every lecture. well, as i promised, i'll study hard. still surviving ;D

and tomorrow will be the day.
it's the day!
just that day that i'm finally meeting pepper again. HA!
(sounds like some total lunatic girl who haven't seen her bf for a thousand years)

btw, do i give people this "JASMINE" look? cos i don't understand why do ppl always call me Jasmine by mistake. MELISSA is like so different from JASMINE! hmm.. although yes, my mum almost named me jasmine. wierd. but both are flower's name.

so random. oh ya! i'm finally over my 14 days. finally overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
i'm gonna love my job even more especially on weekends ;D

till next time>>

it's time to get up

suddenly the feeling of school reopening excites me (what contradiction). The heavy mugging days, those days in the lib, rubbish that we can't stop blabbering about, lame songs that phelan always suddenly play into my ears, etc. those were the days and i sure miss it. so since school's starting, i can't wait :D

albeit the start of school, i'll still be working. since it's the first week which marks "nothing much" will really happen in school, it'll be 2 weekdays and pay rise for my first weekend. more money, happier me (:

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it's really hard to put on a strong front
especially when i have extremely active tear glands
guess the new mask haven't fit in very nicely yet
this is getting out of hand. i'm becoming damn emotional

till next time>>

HAPPY 4th

.4th.4th.4th.4th.

we zoom like flash.
thank you for all the UPS and the little bit of down here and there.
you make my world go rounder and merrier (:
thanks for being there (:

LOVE YOU (:

and this is the 4th time i'm blogging. madness.
blog addict

QUIZ

Three names you go by :
1. MELISSA
2. ADD SALT
3. MADWOMAN

Three screen names you have had :
1. MELISSA
2. MEL
3. KAT

Three physical things you like about yourself :
1. eyes
2. height
3. mouth

Three physical things you DON'T like about yourself :
1. thin and short lashes

2. eye BAGS

3. white spots

Three parts of your heritage :
1. ermm..
2. ehhh...
3. HUH???

Three things that scare you :
1. BEETLES

2. things that i don't see in real world
3. my reflection after crying

Three of your everyday essentials :
1. bag
2. shirt
3. pants

Three things you are wearing now :
1. shorts
2. I LOVE MANGO top ;D
3. contact lens

Three of your favourite bands or musical arts :
1. BENj's nonsensical singing
2. BENj's screaming in the phone
3. BENj's subconscious blabbering

Three things you want in a relationship :
1. to MEET him
2. to let him read my mind like a book
3. all his trust for me

Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeals to you :
1. Armani hair style :D
2. Mr C*'s face
3. BENj's height

Three of your hobbies :
1. CRYING
2. crying
3. just crying

Three things you wanna do really badly right now :
1. cry
2. meet pepper
3. rip my heart off my chest

Three careers you're considering / considered before :
1. LAWYER
2. DOCTOR
3. SCIENTIST

Three places you want to go on vacation :
1. all the continents of the world
2. all the continents of the world
3. all the continents of the world

Three things you want to do before you die :
1. meet pepper
2. get my K medal
3. EVANGELISE to everyone around me (then see you all in HEAVEN (:)

Three ways that you are Stereotypical a girl/guy :
1. hmm.. not really sure.

ZERO people that you would like to see take this quiz now :
0. zero

done. this kind of lame quiz quite nice to do leh. omg.
LOL

till next time>>

multi-faced

of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

HOUSE BUNNY wasn't THAT fantastic. but i sure love her bimbo-ness and their team work.
at least it kept me away from all worries for a while.
it was shopping up and down town area for the whole day with jelly.
nice company makes my day joyful (:

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again

tomorrow will be a new start.
i'll do it. i'll keep on doing it.
i'll not complain anymore.
till my last breath, i'll grit my teeth,
i'll give all that i can.
i will. believe me.

goodbye to the old self. it's time i get a new mask.

till next time>>

black or white

whether true or a fake,
logical or illogical,
burying it or leaving it hanging,
yes or no.

leave it behind me. shall not broad about it anymore since it wouldn't do me any good.
i'll stick to my own conviction and carry on this journey.
for i know at the end of the day, the truth will still surface.

on a lighter note, i'm going for HOUSE BUNNY LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
this is what i've been looking for since last sunday. can you imagine?

and how come i didn't know i can be this agitated?
hah!

till next time>>

never have we seen, never have we expected

as a team so strong.
we all had the same thoughts, same goals; to win medals for our TEAM.
but things don't always work out like we want it to be.
never have we expected, never have we thought.
we've come so far so why make it hard for each other?
we're a TEAM. WORK together and not put each other down.
we work for each other and NOT for SELF. we strive as a TEAM.
this is depressing especially when i'm mad aching from ytd's gym.
and my efforts today are still not seen albeit i already gave in all i could. not everything can be shown on my face. really.
i have my limits, or rather, WE have our limits.
we are not those who will try to find excuse to escape. we do know our limits.
sometimes, you have to take a step back and look at the situation first before concluding.

hopefully not like what i forsee.
hopefully.

I LOVE YOU MY TEAM. LOVE YOU ALL!
NYP KAYAKING!

till next time>>

DO or DON'T

i'm kind of stagnant for today's training ):
but at least the run was good, as a whole. we did complete it together didn't we? YES MANN! GIRLS, KEEP PUSHING ON! we'll come to realise that it's all worth it when our hard work pays off (:
NYP KAYAKING, YOOSH!

last week of holiday.
every minute, every second is precious and i must not let it go to waste.
arrival of school is not anticipated AT ALL.
please convince me that school is not that bad after all...

more water training(s) tomorrow :D
all the best girls!

till next time>>

thank God for today

I have the coolest tee in town!

had time trial today and i was very much contented with our K2!
we got our best record in this kind of condition. good job :D
and K1 feels good too especially when it was K1-4. hahah.
i'll train harder for i haven't reach my peak yet. GO MELISSA!

school will resume in a week's time. how great.
i'm already too used to the training, meeting pepper, working, sleeping, relaxing, using comp, watching tv like there is no tomorrow. only if holiday can extend for another month. (okay, dream on mel)

okay, i'm chatting on the phone now. can't multi task. bye!

till next time>>

day out ;D

shall continue with my 3rd post of the day...

finally a LOOOOOONG day out with pepper. rainie and some of his teammates joined us thereafter.
was shopping and McDonald's.
then we split up when his teammates wanted to watch house bunny.
didn't want to watch cos i had an appointment with jelly on friday.
so it was left with benj and me again on a mission to get my...

POLKA DOTTED HAVERSACK!

HAHAH! as you can see, we did accomplish our task thanks to pepper who insisted on finding it for me. best part is, it will be counted as my bday gift from my family. thank you VERY much ;D

yes, i know i'm VERY oldies. polka dots and all the retro stuff. but i'm totally in love with it. can't really restrict what you like right? imagine me in the 50's, 60's, 70's. omg.. i'll definitely blend with those "agogo" stuff and go crazy over polka dots. hahah.

the day seemed so short somehow.
especially while taking the train.
one moment, it was bishan.
then the next time i ask pepper, he told me one more stop to yishun.
omg.. time flies when we're tgt. so unfair ):
oh wells, more shopping when i get my pay :D

and i'm totally addicted to my new bag. i can't stop staring at it.
i love polka, i love dots,
i love big polka dots,
i love small polka dots,
i love green ones,
i love red ones,
i love black ones,
i love brown ones,
i love pink ones,
i love white ones,
i love all the colours there has to be,
i love POLKA DOTS!!

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

till next time (:

in a flash

timetable is OUT!
i suppose it's better than last sem. at least i get to train normally since there is NO night class!!
great. still, looking at the timetable means school is starting. very scared. i hope i don't screw up this sem. i can't afford to if i still want to get into NUS into my ideal course.
like for the start of every other semesters, i will always go:
I WILL WORK HARDER and study hard!

okay, while i was analyzing the timetable, i realise tt this sem is really going to be nice. cos i'm going to have all the really nice teachers ;D
like Ms Chian (who still recognises me though she didn't teach me last sem),
Ms Diong (who calls me red riding hood),
Ms Selina (finally helped me understood RNA and DNA),
Mr KelvinR (the handsome one),
Mr ECM (not sure but he is nice)...
then the rest i dono who are they.
great, it's gonna make my life better with the familiar faces.
i'm looking forward to pulling my GPA grades up!!
i am. i am. really very determined!

i'm very very very very hungry. cos i only had hello panda for lunch.
grawrrrrrr~

till next time>>

HAPPY birthday

so it was my HAPPY 18th birthday on the 1st.
thanks for all the smses; those are the ones that really brightened up my day.
really. and of course a bonus was those gifts and cards and food and cakes.
thank you thank you for trying to make my day a lot better and i feel better being an 18 (:
big thank you :D

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ytd was down to RP after training again.
so we were playing "game of life" the new version.
it's like so fun that i can't bear to leave la. and i end up leaving RP at 5pm when i had to work at 6pm. hahahah. yes, i was late. oh well, entertainment comes first especially when i really needed it at this point in time.
work's great thou there wasn't much ppl ard. looking at sushi(s) and trying to memorise their names help the time to pass faster. serious.

today's my break! from training and work.
so it's finally time i get to meet Kit for more than 3 hours ;D

hahahahhahahhahahahhhahahhahahahhah
i'm happy ;D

bye bye:D

i'm really happy ;D