summary of 2009

2009's coming to an end.
This year, I've experienced the best and worse that I could take.

Religion
From leaving that old place to feeling homeless and neglected to now finding hope once again. From where I am now, I learn so much and applying them to things that I really needed help in. But somehow, I still haven't learn to apply what I learn into my daily life i.e, only giving thanks to things that I receive and not for those that I do not get. Plus those impatience and anger (etc.) that I do not change which makes me a really sucky person (i know that).

Attachment
Experience how it is like to wake up at 5am every morning and chionging down in cab with a cab fare of at least $25 if I were to be late. Having countless nightmares of being late for work and the most torturous 4 months of being separated from my clique. There were also really frequent visits to RP 'cos my company bus stops at woodlands. It was also due to attachment that I had to forgo my part-time job and became jobless since then.

Kayaking
The most complicated yet most satisfying experience of the 3 years. It was where I learn that as long as talent is not involved, only hardwork and sacrifices counts. Definitely, it will be rewarded.
This year I was paired up with Partner too! Went through all the crazy trainings/races which I never thought I could. Going into boat control with a K2/K1/K4 for the first time. Which is totally awesome. Training days are not the sweetest experience but it is the most hardcore moulding kind which come to think of it is going to be the most memorable.

R/S with B
Not a very smooth sailing year but it's just the beginning I'm sure. And just looking at the other problems in life, it will somehow affect this factor in some way or another which makes it a bumpy ride. 2010 will be fabulous I know 'cos you're going to be an adult in army! I'm kind of looking forward to 2010 (: hahah


Year 2009 is indeed fulfilling and I know I've became someone who I no longer know anymore. Somehow it's just part of life that I know will be over but since I'm into it, I'll just play the role until it's time to stop. I can only be a 19 for a year. After this, I'll no longer be able to play a fool like this and run away when problems arises. Responsibilities will start to pile up and running will no longer be a solution. This year is also the year that I cried the most. NOT only because of B but things that I'd rather keep it inside forever 'cos I know that the world is a lie and I want to hide away forever.

Tomorrow is 2010. New year, same resolution 'cos it's still only halfway fulfilled.
Just one more request that 2010 will be the best year EVER! (:

till next YEAR! :D