for what is worth

suddenly i have this rush of sadness.
the thought of this as my last sprint race, and it's gonna be real in a month's time.
efforts that I've placed in for the glory, for the medals, for the title we want so bad for the team.
but sometimes i just can't help it but to think, is it all about winning that is making me hold on?
and i believe that is not the real reason that kept me holding on.
most of it comes from there but without how much i enjoy the greatness I could get from this sport, i believe i couldn't have held on this long.
still, it comes in a package and all just revolves around one another.
from passion to desire to stress-relieve to friendship to hope to desire to passion
indeed with this sport, I've changed. good and bad.
10 years down the road when I look back again, medals may just be metal pieces laying there but at least I'll never forget how i use to enjoy it so much in the past and why I actually put in so much to train so hard.
coming to the conclusion, I still think it's because I love this sport.
It is through it that I learn that I am actually capable of more than who I am.



if you don't get what i really mean, it's just like living with a person for 3 years, seeing the person everyday and suddenly the person just dies and you'll never get to see him again.
my kind of illustration.

till next time>>

ehh..

seriously, i really had no idea what got into me; to allow myself to get my hair so screwed at that time.
omg...
i'm so glad it's over, OVER!

human race

Woke up at 5.35am, rushed down to city hall to meet B and his teammates for the Nike run (:
Deposited our baggage and ran 10km.
While running, met up with more of B's teammates and we ran together until the whole place became ultra congested and I couldn't take it so we split up from the rest.
Did the wormy cut through amount those humans then came the up slope where I forced myself to chiong up to shorten the pain but right after that I died so B slowed down with me and continued the rest of the race at my pace (:

As we ran the shirt couldn't stop sticking onto our bodies and I tell you, it was SOAKED after the run. It's like as if i fell into the pool. really.

Collected our bags and went to look for the rest. Found partner with her friends TOO!

also this lady who was taking Polaroids and giving them out but too many people were cutting my queue until her films ran out ): yes, i was disappointed but it's okay 'cos i made my own instead (:
Found the rest, took a bus to bishan for lunch and off they went to their water training while i went home.


Obviously he is more capable than me but he chose to stick with me under the cruel hot sun.
and we completed the race together
nope, he went for the beep few seconds before me (grawl) but he deserve to have a faster timing than me la since he had to run at my pace and yes, a guy cannot lose to a girl.. (blah blah)
:D THANKS B! LOVE YOU LARHHH!
we're now the finisher of the NIKE HUMAN RACE 2009 [:

till next time>>

no longer the TGIF

since 1st week was great, i no longer have the TGIF kind of thought.
and everyday is just as great so really, not really looking forward to Fridays.
kind of miss those days that i beg for Friday to come but wells, i love what i'm having now (:
This week sure pass by pretty fast. like 10X faster than those attachment days.

and soon i foresee myself saying, "CRAP! it's already week 6 and i have tons of things to study for my common test and next week there's tons of reports to complete!" oh well.. standard lines that i can never strike off my dictionary.


what a life to be typing crap on a friday. pathetic huh..


till next time>>

wohoo

seriously, this has been the best first week of school ever!
almost all the labs are canceled so i had the chance to get some extra trainings almost everyday.
same goes for today, huat/joce/joyce/me hit the gym while XY/daryl went for a swim.
i'm so thankful for this week because i'm really stuck in the holiday mood and if i have to "BAM" get right back into intensive studying, i'll continue to try so damn hard to keep my eyes opened for those after lunch lessons :/
this transition is good and so by next week i guess i'll kind of be back on track (:
and surely, i'm so glad that i can lunch with my friends all over again and laugh along in class plus some lecturers this sem are pretty cool man! i like (:

today's lecture was good! really interesting demos, like watching magic show and that can of nescafe really helped A LOT (:
pharm lab is canceled, early dismissal.
satisfying larh!

tomorrow will be a longer day compared to mon-today but i'm sure i'll make it with the nonsense talk i get from my friends (:

YAY!
MELISSA LOVES SCHOOL :D
(yes, you'll only hear me say this once)

till next time>>

i want to cry

crap.
i hate my life.
everything is crumbling.
and i want to cry again.

i tried my best for almost whatever that i'm doing but still..


but thankfully, both my partners (J and B) are such darlings.
encouraging and loving :D
tt's a reason why i'm still surviving (:

with love

East Coast Park with B was great!
just that when it comes to going up slope, my knee went damn chui.
kay, training again tomorrow (:
i'm lovin' it (:


and today is B's birthday!!

Happy 20th silly! :D

till next time>>

SIXTEENTH

In a few minutes time, it'll be our 16th month!
Plus, October is the birthday month for both of us! :D
ha! and in another few days he'll turn 20. OLD man (:
Ben, i see charm in older guys so the older you grow, the more charming you get alright (:
okay.. so rubbish.
i'm going to sleep.
BYE BYE!

get over it

a fresh new start, all over again with the same you.
it will surely make things better (:

takes time

today had land training.
my run was disappointing and my weights dropped to rock bottom.
Let's not talk about weights as it is still acceptable but definitely not for the run.
It was really very demoralising. It's true that I haven't ran for very long but it's just not an excuse for me to drop back so much. I tried to run, but i just couldn't focus. All that came to my mind was fatigue and MEL, just give up.

Mental is the key. It can bring me above what I am capable of physically but it can also psycho my body to stop functioning.

Improving takes time but I'm impatient and I want to succeed. I don't have much time and I need to catch up double the time faster than the rest. Training during attachment is tough. Getting back is worse.
I don't dread training. I love rowing.
I just hate my body and mind for letting me down again and again.


and now i'm kind of cheered up after talking about that puppy with my 60% bf. LOL!

till next time>>

Barrage fun!

Thank God for the sunny sunshine today at marina barrage :D
Yes, only at marina barrage. It was pouring back at Yishun.


As B promised, we went to marina barrage for a look-see and took pictures of the awesome scenery up at the grass field and enjoying the cool breeze that surrounds. The family carnival held there added to the mood (:


Visited the Indoor water exhibition for the air-con as our main priority but we sure had a great deal of fun taking pictures and running around more actively than those kids ;D


It has been quite some time since we really had the chance to go out without having to rush back. Chatting about things that are only involved around the barrage and almost keeping ourselves away from the reality. Silence with no awkwardness was the bliss to enjoy each others companionship.





Seeing B enjoying the scene of kites flown and laughing his way through as we took those jump shots made me see the child side of him (:
I'm so glad that this day came and surely, i didn't want it to end.



still, Good times sure passes by quickly and tomorrow is B's first day at school again while tough training resumes for me. So, i look forward to another Sunday where I'll have another fun day out :D

till next time>>

The rain just crushed my yearly dream of playing with candles on every mid autumn festival )':

it's all about the thoughts

(:

birthday eve

How will you pose when you see this sculpture?



In the most normal way, you'll probably just stand beside it and give a smile at the camera.


But i guess boys are boys. they're not bothered about the camera -.-




and okay, i spent my birthday eve with B.
B for Bruce Lee :D
Bruce Lee comes ALIVE :DDD




and sadako comes alive!


what kind of day is this? dead things coming alive?!
okay. i know very random. but ya, girls are just random; whether you like it or not (:

bye!

My great 19th!
Many thanks to those who sent their wishes through fb, msges, blogger, etc.
and those who make the extra effort to get me a gift.
it's only with all of you that made my birthday so special this year (:


yesterday's night out with the girls was GREAT!
love the company, the new experience.
(but not the aftermath)
i thought that i'm not going to receive any cake this year and before i went to meet my girls, Huimin bought me a choco cake which is like omg damn nice.
when i met the girls, they surprised me with yet another choco cake.
(: love cakes!
i was given a party hat to wear and a hearty specs which i threw the hat away and lost the specs somewhere on the dance floor ):
really want to thank my girls for making last night so fun!


and of course i cannot forget to Thank BF for clearing up all my whiny nonsense after that.
LOL.
come to think of it, i was really like a fool to go like i'm only tipsy! not drunk! and i kept repeating that for a thousand times.
now that i'm kind of back to reality, i think i'll stick to being the usual self for awhile. the girl who would prefer to go marina barrage for some picnic and photos taken (:



again, thanks to everyone who made my birthday extra special (:

YES! it's me!