used to be

wake up call


was just browsing through my old post.
came across those posts which are all about coming polite. once so motivated, so determined, so excited. it's a "cannot do without winning" attitude. Now all i see in me is fear, distraction, and stress upon self. it's no longer the attitude i used to have. remember those post which i kept counting down to polite. starting from day 19. which is around this time as well. haven't gotten that feeling yet. hopefully training will bring me to it tomorrow. i can't afford to lose.

think:
it's all a fresh start
everyone stands a certain chance
never give up for there is no limit to best
i need to pick myself back up again like how i once did.


i'm scared. there is phobia.
only i can bring myself out of this situation.
i've got to try.

till next time>>