when the cloudy days are over

being natural can be really hard when your nature is like that
and changing your nature makes you fake.
hmm..
think it's time i start being good.
in life, how many times have i been good to people? what a shame.
it's just shameful to know so much about "loving your neighbour as yourself" yet still treating some like enemies whenever they speak.
everyone has flaws; me and you.
i promise i will try to be good even to those that i really dislike.
it doesn't hurt to be good anyway.
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it's just so WRONG!

white tee + jeans + laptop + timbuk2

well, it's the very typical dressing for school
but definitely not for transporting boats!
had this last minute decision to help transport the boats over to macritchie
so i didn't have any spare clothes to change since i went over to LSR straight after school.
the best thing is, it started pouring.
felt and looked kuku, i promise!

so it's training over at macritchie tmr, sunday and wednesday.
while the juniors will be down to LSR for the first time tmr.

anw, jelly got her BLACK cap! hahah.
mum got me mine and her siblings got her hers.
partners cannot stop having similar things, so envy us :D

over with reports,
comes the tests.

sayonara!

screwed

mann.. my journey with THERModynamics hasn't been going very smoothly.
2 days of studying,
2 days of < 4 hours of sleep

cups of tea to keep me awake,

many reminders to stop daydreaming,

i even skipped training (yes, partly due to the weather).

in short, it's just 2 days of misery.

even forTHERM lab. i just want to choose my own group members.

well, so much about all these. i can only assure myself that i will TRY to survive.

so many to look forward to. NWKC, CHURCH CAMP, kungfu panda with my cartoon clique, meet up with girls, actually just the 2 weeks of study break. yes, it's supposed to be the study break but still..

okay.. 3 more official sea trainings in macritchie and land training later. time to train hard after so much of studying.

dilemma

for real i experience DILEMMA.
stuck in the middle.
i don't even know what to do.

totally screwed for everything.
i'm damn helpless, hopeless.
please get me off this Lord,
i cannot take it anymore.

i need a breather.

till next time>>

DREAM BIG

'Cause if you don't dream big,
What's the use of dreaming?
If you don't have faith
There's nothing worth believing.
It takes one look
To make the stars worth reaching for
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it's my last chance to do well for FPM test 1 (10%). all the best to me!

till next time>>

fear to confidence

Until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore,
you will not know the terror of being forever lost in the sea.

NWCC is 2 saturdays away.
i'm definitely lying through my teeth if i say that i'm not scared.
but at least the fear is being converted to confidence today after the few sprint sets.
it's no more an individual thing, no more blaming of another.
we are as one and we must move on together.
I'm looking forward to every single training from now especially sea trainings.
they are precious which determines what we are in the race.

-ALL IN THE MIND-
Finish it with no regrets.

FEAR to CONFIDENCE!!

Got these ytd in town with teammates

:D
i had that smiley for breakfast and it did brighten up my day if not i will definitely grumble about going to school on a good tuesday which is supposed to be my holiday.

well, school wasn't that bad today. 2 hours of REE tutorial and 2 hours of SP4 discussion with groupmates. we finished 4 newspaper writing already! 4 more to go.

too lazy to study for tomorrow's REE test and to do maths tutorial. cause i did my SP4 forum just now and i'm very proud that my brain can actually think.. so now i'm exhausted. bah.

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NO REE LAB TOMORROW! means i can go home after REE lecture and it also means that i don't have to bring my paddle to school. OMG! how thankful can i be. i'm really really thankful cause i've been thinking of the place that i should put my paddle so that i wouldn't block the people in the lecture room. hahah. YES!

i'm going for training (:

till next time>>

School life

guess i should just update about school cause i think all you all know about what i do in school is just reports and group work and nothing else. hahah.

hmm.. shall just start off with MATHS on Thurs.
learned this new differential thing; A simple solution method: Euler's method.
yes i must agree that it's SIMPLE but i cannot stand the way that we must calculate and get the accumulated answer to calculate for the next answer and go on and on and on in a table. it almost drove me nuts while calculating. you can actually ask the 2 sitting beside me cause i kept complaining non-stop about how lame this method works (at least to me). hahah!

JL2 is always exhausting. i always get this sharp brain pain when i try to memorise the vocab in class and figure out what the teacher is trying to say.

then it comes to Thermodynamics.
what is output, what is input? cold or hot? what and the refrigerant? (???)

Ruiying did her SP4 presentation and guess our slides are pretty alright? finally something good is happening!

FPM lab is... take the flowrate Shirui. took a thousand readings from the Venturi thing.
A B C D E F G H J K L

well, the others are just too scary to explain. simply because i don't really have an idea what is going on.
maybe FPM is like 'U' tube and calculations while REE is pumps, motors, valves, pipes.

oh yes, i have to say this.
coincidence on thurs; clique wore berms and slippers to school. HA!
guess it's going to be a standardized attire since it's the only day that we don't have to wear jeans to school unless the guys want to wear skirt with me on that day (:

here it is. that's school and i LOVE it.

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Sentosa with kayakers tomorrow :DD

rowing

stay positive no matter what. i'm very sure we will master it.

did 8 sets of sprints today and capsized 4 of it. mann.. okay, as long as we don't give up. get the problem and SOLVE it. i will straighten my arm and stone will not lean and we are perfect already. just a bit more. improve after every training and in 3 weeks, we will race our hearts out!

i'm excited about tmr's rowing! down to macritchie for the first time to row! i'm excited, i'm excited ((:
yes, i brought my paddle home today too. and i'm supposed to bring it to school on wednesday as well for training. mannnnn.... can we pack rice and eat outside the lecture room this time? cos i don't want to be the center of attraction during lunch :/

I'M excited la!!
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i've been busy over everything in life that i'm neglecting a lot more. can you believe it? i actually communicate with my little sis through email. that's pretty extreme. i don't even know what's the use of my mouth now. but i guess communication works naturally. i'm still trying hard to get it.

till next time>>

friday training

impromptu training was stress-free and i think pretty efficient at the same time. at least i can spot what my mistakes are. while rowing, i saw this guy who looks 99.99999% like mr C* the only difference is that his build is double of him. ha! wait.. but he look familiar. like some TV star? news reporter? primary sch teacher? dono who.. just very familiar.

tmr is the SCL kickoff. mannnnnn.. mr C* is playing la. and i doubt i will make it in time to watch the match ))):

good today and better tomorrow. i will row till WE master it!!! go go go go go go goooooo!

thanks for the top and the day (:

bye!

hang on

failure in communication.
forget it. sometimes i just feel like keeping quiet.

failures make me stronger. what's the point of giving up now? might as well just whack till i die. as least i die with some glory (:
giving up now is like ending life halfway.
cap, cry and crawl up again.
what's the big deal? com'on wake up, wake up. still a long way to go.

i sooo want it and i WILL get it! RAWR!
PON PON PATA PON!
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yea mann.. EM2A at 8am tomorrow. damn high.

at last i'm going to see the kayaking juniors for land training tomorrow ;D
finally. oh and i realise i got 2 juniors with the same name as me. MEL 1, MEL 2 and MEL 3

bye bye!

3.33 PM

3.33 pm is CURSED! :/

look at the time of my post. it's so coincidentally 3.33pm although it is supposed to be registered as 3.35 pm. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

jocelyn is the my curser and daryl is the cursor :D

but i'm cursed!

pardon me. i'm talking no sense here. i've been screwed pretty badly over my screwed up FPM test. in DeeeeeeeeeeeeeeP sh*t, yes.

i'm sick of complaining anw.

bye bye!

bye bye

weekends are here again. no longer anticipated.

weekends means to prepare to/for:
Monday: submit HMT report
Wednesday: REE test, EM2A test, submit REE report
Thursday: submit JL2 assignment
Friday: submit FPM report

and it's the weekends again. woah, then the cycle comes again. that simply summarizes why i've been complaining SO much. well, sometimes it's really pointless going on and on with the ranting since everyone else are experiencing the same thing or maybe worse. at least i can still smile and laugh in school. count myself blessed already. take all these as a training for discipline and endurance. i'm so gonna get over it!

on a positive note, at least i have rowings on saturdays (:
and we're celebrating mOm's day tomorrow!
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ROW PULL TWIST GO GO GOOOOOOO!

"bye bye" by mariah carey is going round and round in my mind.

bye bye!

friends forever

friends are friends forever

yes indeed. i love my friends more than anything else. although i may always be suaning you all and stuff, nagging and throwing temper.. still you know i LOVE you all a lot <3<3<3 i don't only love you all only when you all are good to me la. although sometimes it appears like that. i know you all understand ((:

i have a very brilliant shirt which goes like:
friends are forever,
boys are whatever. HA! (i deserve a slap)

can't wait for phelan to come online 'cause you know, songs are important to me (:
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yup.. ROWED today. tt's why i'm super in the mood. though it's only 1 and a half rounds due to the LIGHTNINGS and THUNDERS. the water was oh-so-good today. oh wells...
talk to me and you will know how HAPPY I AM. contradictory, i failed my REE quiz 2 (3/10) when everyone else got at least (6/10). crap. but i'm still happy (:

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

i have soooo much to say.. that now i'm having brain block. happiness overloading. if life can just stay like this FOREVER..





-i've gotta build on my GUTS. if not then supply me with ear plugs. rawr!

break down

PADDLE my worries away,
PADDLE my unhappiness away,
PADDLE my anger away,
let all the paddling bring joy to me again,
before i break down.

can't wait to paddle again tomorrow (:

p.s. if you happen to notice, poly clique have almost the same kind of PM. HA!

colours to life

reliable bunch of folks.
the people who fills up the colours in my ever so dull studying life (:

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night classes can drive one insane. like usual, laughing for no particular reason till mind goes blank all of a sudden. this happens especially when it's 2 hours of tutorial where one has to " switch on" to photocopier mode.

.

NEVER put me down or ask me to give up. it doesn't work and perhaps only change my impression towards you.

-even the only pavement to light is covered in a great amount of sh*t.

till next time>>

thank you sooo much

from the bottom of my heart, i really want to thank Xiang yuan and jacqueline. without them in my HMT group, i might just kill all my brain cells and still don't get the answers to my questions. experiments all appear FUN huh.. but when it come to calculating those alienish stuff, you will NEVER say that it's fun. goodness me.

i've killed plenty of those pathetically few brain cells that i own so now i don't even know if i have anymore left. time to get drowsy before my cough starts killing more cells again. bye!

the world doesn't care. but i have GOD

too weak to withstand the drowsy medication.
feeling really weak during training, still tried to row as much as i can but think coach can see that i'm really physically and mentally exhausted.

K2 with jelly is improving. practice makes perfect. we will try harder and COMMUNICATE more . yea partner?

gotta finish up my report before it piles up and drown me. week 3 has passed. mann.. i'm always very afraid of week 5 and 6 'cos that's when dreams become nightmares. but this semester is pretty different from year 1. 3 quizzes in week 4. perhaps i will get sweeter dreams if i work harder.

oh yes, a few nights ago, i had this dream nightmare that i didn't get my diploma after year 3. GOSH! it really freaked me awake. but good thing since my dreams almost always never come true (:

kay. back to report. bye!