curiosity kills the cat

why?
evidence say this.
but it appears otherwise.
and i really hate it.
i tried to convince myself that i'm overly sensitive.
and i really hope it is true.
but i just can't seem to be convinced.
i feel like shit.
cos i dono what is the truth.
and i want to know it bad.

why?
must i always be so curious?
now i end up learning more.
and i can't help to be even more curious.

feel like crap now.