i'm back to it again.
i miss those days church days;
i miss those eating out days with my whole family;
i miss those days with my girls when we have endless topics.

i've been missing a lot.
a lot.
a lot.

i want to go back to how i use to be. i know that i've changed and i don't like who i am now. i miss those days that all i needed was to trust is Him and having trust that He will handle the rest for me.
I cry to Him, i share my joys with Him, i give thanks for everything that He has given to me everyday even if it was a bad day. I miss the way i feel the comfort and peace He gives after i cry the entire night. And everyday, all i needed to think about is trusting that He'll bring me a better tomorrow.
at the same time, i cannot bear to skip those sundays which is badly needed for my competition.
I'm so trapped.

is this another trial that melissa is going to fail again?

till next time>>