only if i can row forever

i'm starting to worry about the coming race already.
i know i shouldn't be getting all stressed up but i want to win that badly mann.
haix.
CPTC is coming next monday.
i am suppose to be excited about it cos i couldn't wait for attachment but but but
it must happen like 2 weeks before PA paddle championship.
gosh..
i cannot stop worrying.
haix.

i want to win for myself
i want to be paid for my efforts
i want to do my team and coach proud,
i don't want to be a let down ):
i want this so much.

well, you know, another reason is that Pepper has been doing quite well in his races recently and i just want to be as compatible you know? quite a wrong way to think but it motivates me.

limited trainings but i still must make the effort to miss this sunday's.
gotta make it down for easter Sunday service.
i miss worships and sermons.
bet that's more important than anything else right?
i put FULL TRUST in Him.
(i'll try)

till next time>>