good old GB days

Dear Diary,

I overslept again today but i still made it to service. thank God there is some technical problems so everything was delayed (:
So Ms Catherine leaded worship today and most of the songs or rather, all the songs are those that i'm familiar with. we usually sing those during GB for singspiration. it brought me back to the familiar feeling i use to have as a GB girl, singing happily like there's just me and God.

I thank God for this worship today actually. Ever since XXX, i suddenly became so drifted away. Maybe i'm just so occupied with my everyday thing that fills up every emptiness within. So busy with everything that i've already blended into the cycle like everyone else. Sometimes even planning for gliderz event or going for those events, it just felt like any other social events that everyone goes to. it's been really long since i last had a proper quiet time. Even during prayers, my mind is drawn away or sometimes i just simply allow myself to fall asleep.

in the past, when somebody tells me that another person has drifted away from God, i'll always tell myself that it will not happen to me 'cause i always trusted Him in every way. Now, i'm relying on my own and always having the mentality that i can solve my own problems and not even willing to give it a try to believe or trust. albeit i always say that i must have faith in Him.

changed so much. if it was still the same person who was once so devoted, i believe she'll never have to post about all these.

and i really pray that i'll be like how i use to be.

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Kit is sick ):
get well and meet up soon!

till next time>>