I.NEED.TO.CHILL

my day is bad enough.
stupid rain has to come before rowing.
got seletar's mud stuck in my nail which hurts so much.
got my arm bruised.
after rowing, TIRED and TIRED and just TIRED.
can't find the sports bra i wanted.
met people who deliberately stand in my way and walk DAMN slow.
on my way home, this girl (10-12 years) rolled her eyes at me for whatever reason.
got home and must be pissed by sis.
like yes, she is the only one who is tired.
yes yes yes. i'm the ONLY one at fault.
i'm just such a waste on earth wasting everybody's oxygen.
why don't someone just stab me at the back and let me die.
then everyone will be happy.
only if i'm a person without guilt so i don't have to forgive.
i don't mean to but seriously, dammit.

ain't holidays suppose to be happier?
Where are my hopes, where are my dreams
where is My Cinderella story scene.

till next time>>