just the borderline

somehow and somewhat, back to square one.
but still revolving around the vicious cycle.

used to look forward to just a pass and almost always contented. after every test or exam, as long as i'm over and done with it, i will definitely invert my frown. but now i no longer do. always getting the worried feeling just like everyone else who aims high and expects for more. maybe that's what the world has taught me to. aim high and expect for more; don't just aim for the tree. instead, aim for the sky so at least when i fall, i will still have the clouds. yes, it's ever since i got to see the light to prove to someone that i don't deserve to be despised. not sure if this is good or bad. i'm expecting more from myself and not enjoying the entire process of life but i don't want to go back to just aiming for a borderline. is there a way to get equilibrium in life?
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all test: SCREWED. but i did pass my FPM retest which i endured 2 days of misery studying for.
as of now, tests are over till after my 2 weeks break. and i just want to enjoy the process of going through what i really love. row with a happy heart and anything more will be a bonus. finish it with no regrets.

the insufficient sleep is killing my brain.
that's why we have a mini CFC (caffeine fan club) among my clique.

2 more days to NWKC!
and i will appreciate seletar even more when i go back there to row.

till next time>>