a happy picture for a sad entry.
trying to obtain equilibrium.

MATHS and FPM
can't help but to feel totally cheated. everything is just not right. what the hell is wrong. it's either i'm plain dumb or i'm just not that clever (doesn't make a diff. anw). there goes my dream A for maths. i can just kill myself for leaving out 15 marks totally for maths. and mind you, it's MATHS!! dammit.
FPM is hopeless. i will pray soooooo hard to get a D. damn pathetic ):

whatever. i'm left with HMT and all my hopes are on it.
was suppose to be mugging hard for HMT today but i end up playing with "cooking mama".
mel, well done mann. even i can't control myself. i'm totally hopeless.

i realise another thing. i hate myself more and more each day.
GOD, i think it's really time i listen to you and follow closely behind.
till next time>>