so near yet so far

so near yet so far.

PA is in a week's time and i'm nowhere near my aim.
K2 was sometimes stable/unstable, capsized without knowing the reason, strokes are not coordinated and stuff.
it's in a week.
Didn't do T2 today. as of friday's training, direction is a BIG BUGGY problem, strokes not powerful enough.
it's in a week.
my strokes are still halfway there. no power, not aggressive. starting was crap, not even attentive to the start.
it's in a week.
tell me how can i feel ready if i have so much to worry about?
i know i will do my best for i want to taste victory but first, i've gotta get my strokes right and boat moving.
i pin VERY high hopes on both. i want it so so so badly.


not demoralised. just felt that i have to get myself focused.
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timbuk2 got bird-shitted just 6 days after i own it. poorthing.

dono to feel excited or what. school reopens in 2 days!

till next time>>