rejection

shit. i don't even know if this is a sudden decision or not. i have no idea if i'm gonna regret it for life. but at least i know for the next few days or maybe weeks and months i will. i'm so confused. i cannot help it. i thought it's gonna do us good but i can't help but to feel heartbroken. shit. shit. shit. i'm the biggest fool on earth. i deserve to be killed. just skin me alive.