12 more days to IVP

I've been having dreams about kayaking.
every thought is about kayaking.
I'm so stressed.
i'm so scared.
Lord, pls grant me peace!
i want it really badly,
i don't want to be a failure,
no more a disappointment anymore.


maybe this is my first competition in my entire 17 years on earth that i'm freakin out.
I dreamt of going for competitions for my team,
i know i want it
but i still cannot believe that it's going to happen on next saturday!
It's just too sudden, too fake.
but no matter what, i'm going to whack my way through and i'm sure our T2 is going to rock the whole seletar that day!
i promise that i will give my best!




i don't have time for anything else.
i must stay FOCUSED!!
















till next time>>