TRASH!

Why am I always such a failure? I'm not doing academically well and I thought I could cover it up with GB however, its no better. I'm such a failure for both. I didn't get my Pioneer Brigaders' Brooch (PBB). So what am I? Just a piece of TRASH! I'm useless. That's the point. I haven't been that strongly hurt before. I just don't understand.I felt that I've given my best but I'm still not good enough. Why is He doing this to me? Like what Ms Eunice has mentioned. Maybe He knows that I will be arrogant after getting this award. I just have to accept what He has planned for me. I think this is also what Carmen is feeling too. All things taken away and its all His plan which we must follow. WHY?