20 May 2006

Today is Saturday and although I had stepped down, I still went back for GB. Firsly, its for cheerleading and next, Ms Eunice wanted to talk to some P3 girls about our future commitment in GB. Not only did I went back for GB, I want back for Math supplementary and Mother Tongue supplementary. It's a horrendous day today. Had math so early in the morning and its like 7.30am then we had mother tongue which Ms Tan made me a fool in class. Its her again! Previously, I did post about her cos she was like scolding me for no reason and now she was like reading out my most terrible composition for mother tongue out to the whole class. Is it that she really hate me a lot?? I simply don't understand. I may be bad in my chinese but can't she just be patient to teach me?? I have changed so much from last year. I spoke lesser in class, did most of the assignments in class and I'm trying to do this so that she would at least see that I'm putting in effort for my chinese but instead, she seemed to hate me more and is treating some people who is like a teacher's pet by acting cute so well just because she hand in very good assignments that was like indirectly being done by her tuition teacher. In short, it's bias. I feel really down not because she is reading my essay to everyone but she doesn't want to listen to me. I was almost grabbing the script away from her and she is just so insensitive to feel the consequence if she were to read the essay out. I really feel like rebelling at that time by grabbing the paper away from her and just ignore her for the next half of the year but its only because I RESPECT her that didn't make me. I was utterly disappointed by the unsensitiveness (if there happen to be this word) she displays upon me. Just so disappointed. However, after watching The Passion Of Christ just now, I was once again reminded that I must love my enemy and constantly pray for them. Although it may be difficult, I will try so that I can please the Lord. ok so that's about all for MT then Joce and I went for cell. Today was really interesting. Ms Jiaying cooked curry for us. I'm so grateful. Thanks a lot (: Right after cell, we rushed for cheerleading. It's still the same. Disappointed again. Zephers is really not putting in effort. We (Von, Jolene, Jocelyn and I) tried so hard to think of the motions and stuff while Ms Joyann thought of the cheer. However, our juniors just don't have the spirit and the energy. This performance coming up is a "competition" that somehow determines the award that GB 13 coy is going to get. I really can't tolerate the horrible sharpness as well as the low spirit they have. Can't they just like do well and SMILE?! So fustrating! It's really not my day today. Everything doesn't seem to go well. Never mind I will just pray. That's the best solution . After cheerlead, we went for worship with our juniors while waiting for Ms Eunice. It has been a long time since I had worship cos I haven't been to church. It was a great feeling worshipping the Lord and singing praises. Just so FUN (: Next, we were disperses and Ms Eunice was talking to us bout our commitment and if we can commit as a CO or just a helper. We haven't given her an answer cos we don't really know if we can commit if we proceed to tiertiary level. but I'm really sure I will commit my time for Zephers. Simply love them though we have ups and downs. So yupx.. at least I know that I'm recognised and am able to commit for GB.













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