Worst Valentine's Day!!
Today is Valentine's Day and everyone should be happy celebrating with their Valentine. While I am all alone like in the past. Nothing special about today but something just makes me SOO pissed off!!
WARNING:*Get ready to hear the naggiest message from me*
Not having a boyfriend or an admirer is SOO fine with me but the thing is, I finally realised that I don't have a bestie!! sobx.. I always thought that I have a very good and loving friend that is always so concern about me like what other people who knows me will also think BUT I finally realised that it was ALL A BIG MISTAKE!!! It's not a sudden rush kind of decision that I have made. Like what that so called "best buddy" know, I DO observe people and make a decision out of the evidences that I have collected. It's like although we do joke with people and tell each other secrets but we still seem just like normal good friends only. Usually friends are like we share with each other our VERY personal secrets, go shopping together, always try to help each other, when you are absent or ill, the first to contact you and show some concern or even go to the extend that they go to your house to visit you, don't mind sharing stuff with you for instance when your friend looks very thirsty, you AUTOMATICALLY go and buy a cup of water to treat her WITHOUTemphasising that " HEY!! I bought this for you!!". This are little things that ACTUALLY MIND you know!! Although not all people are perfect but at least you treat your BEST friend BETTER than other NORM friends lah!! I also don't have the kind of BEST friends feeling for her too.. I will usually show the darkest secrets to my best friend but for her, I don't really have trust so.. all the secrets are all in my heart. It's not totally NO trust lah.. actually I wanted to tell her my darkest secrets today but I was SOO pissed off that she rather talk to another friend and have no time for me. Although I also know that he is her good friend and is in a bad mood but HEY!! I'm also your friend!! When I nearly wanted to tell her, I accidentally spotted a letter then..... blah blah blah.. then she was like treating me like a total stranger lah!! I was so angry that I just told her that I'm going and stomped off. It's also my fault lah and I admit.. I just left her there all alone and being SOOO petty bout such things. now, I feel really bad about it but can she just for once be more initiative by starting off a conversation with me FIRST!! I'm always the one initiating!! SO sick and tired of this already!! I really feel that everyone in this world hates me!! sobs sobs.. GOD I really need you now. Pls comfort me as I know that you are the only one that I can trust. Humans can fail me but I know that you will NEVA EVA fail me.
till next time>>
WARNING:*Get ready to hear the naggiest message from me*
Not having a boyfriend or an admirer is SOO fine with me but the thing is, I finally realised that I don't have a bestie!! sobx.. I always thought that I have a very good and loving friend that is always so concern about me like what other people who knows me will also think BUT I finally realised that it was ALL A BIG MISTAKE!!! It's not a sudden rush kind of decision that I have made. Like what that so called "best buddy" know, I DO observe people and make a decision out of the evidences that I have collected. It's like although we do joke with people and tell each other secrets but we still seem just like normal good friends only. Usually friends are like we share with each other our VERY personal secrets, go shopping together, always try to help each other, when you are absent or ill, the first to contact you and show some concern or even go to the extend that they go to your house to visit you, don't mind sharing stuff with you for instance when your friend looks very thirsty, you AUTOMATICALLY go and buy a cup of water to treat her WITHOUTemphasising that " HEY!! I bought this for you!!". This are little things that ACTUALLY MIND you know!! Although not all people are perfect but at least you treat your BEST friend BETTER than other NORM friends lah!! I also don't have the kind of BEST friends feeling for her too.. I will usually show the darkest secrets to my best friend but for her, I don't really have trust so.. all the secrets are all in my heart. It's not totally NO trust lah.. actually I wanted to tell her my darkest secrets today but I was SOO pissed off that she rather talk to another friend and have no time for me. Although I also know that he is her good friend and is in a bad mood but HEY!! I'm also your friend!! When I nearly wanted to tell her, I accidentally spotted a letter then..... blah blah blah.. then she was like treating me like a total stranger lah!! I was so angry that I just told her that I'm going and stomped off. It's also my fault lah and I admit.. I just left her there all alone and being SOOO petty bout such things. now, I feel really bad about it but can she just for once be more initiative by starting off a conversation with me FIRST!! I'm always the one initiating!! SO sick and tired of this already!! I really feel that everyone in this world hates me!! sobs sobs.. GOD I really need you now. Pls comfort me as I know that you are the only one that I can trust. Humans can fail me but I know that you will NEVA EVA fail me.
till next time>>
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